Many things happened recently. I chose to quit school and I think many of my friends do not know about this other than my classmates (now my ex-classmates), my family and a few of my closer friends. actually my ntu friends should understand my reasons and difficulty the most because they also experience the same things that I experience. but I know that most of them will be able to make it and get their degree. I can see they handle stress well, many of them are really smart and good in programming. They always ask questions to clear their doubts and they are very hardworking. I admire them and most importantly, I like my classmates too. Nesy, Shuyan, Adrian, Ying Li, Jair, Jane, Angeline and others who are also not in my class - Sri and the other SCE girls, John, Samuel. They have all been great friends and helpful too. For every week I was required to hand in my java lab reports, I can't do finish and I don't know how to do.. until the last minute Vincent will help me do and I will rush out the report. This is unacceptable in my point of view, everybody else who does their own programme does it their own unlike me... And the java programme would take me very long to do because to me the difficulty level was a
great jump from poly. Adrian, Jair are also from IFC but their level of programming is much stronger than mine. I don't know about Sri but I know she also has her difficulties.

For my logic design I took 9 hrs of hands-on experiment to complete my first report. Whereas other people just came in do for 2 hrs and get the results they want. Dmaths and Fmaths were hard to understand and got very difficult halfway through. I tried my best to study hard but it all tired me out and I lost interest in all the subjects I was taking, I could not absorb anymore and my ears did not want to hear anymore, I just knew I couldn't handle it anymore. Furthermore it is only the first semester of my uni, if I am unable to cope and have no interest in what I am study I my as well quit school..

So I didn't go to school anymore for the next few days and didn't sleep well either because all I could think about was what to do next and what job to look for etc. Some of my classmates got worried so I told them that I quit school. I really am going to miss them but it is the choice I made and I know i'm not cut out for uni life.

For the last few days I've been very busy. All I've been doing is look for a job and research on some other courses I can take to further my studies. My main interest is web designing, web graphics design, flash and 3D animation. However I did not learn much in polytechnic as my course is a rojak course that teach a little bit of everything but in the end the graduates that come out are masters in nth. I learn flash and web design myself and I am interested to take the course in Communication Design at http://www.3dsense.net/

I already went the school to ask questions and also went La'Salle because they also offered a course that is on Communication Design. I know going into the design
industry is suicidal because there are tons of designers who have professional
works. La'Salle is more to the design side and they focus on developing creative
ideas and art which I know a very important foundation in design. However, I
have no design background whatsoever and I know my art is not that good so I
want to learn a bit on design as well as softwares that can enhance my skills in web designing. I don't just want to learn how to design sites, I want to learn the scripting part as well so I can make dynamic websites, link websites with databases, mySQL, PHP, ASP, those kind which 3DSense teaches.. Websites... everybody also know how to make static websites.

Truly, I hope that by taking this diploma in communication design course at 3DSense I can learn more things. It will be an intensive course, but I must train myself in this area because I need to learn how to meet deadlines and work under pressure etc. However... this course starts in May next year and until them I have about 5-6 months and I need to find a job. I have no lobang so I'm looking for a job on my own. I've already gone 1 interview at Sony. sigh... that place at Jurong East and the shuttle bus comes at certain timing. Working hrs 9-6... I'm taking japanese classes with Roger, maybe changing to weekend because I may have to work on weekdays. Japanese class is fun..tomorrow I'm going for another interview in some IT company at Queenstown. Today went shopping abit to buy some clothes for working. I want to find a job in the IT industry but I'm not good in anything. I don't really like programming that much either, my programming also so weak.

Haiz... then when I want to play game... my PS2 got read disc error. Actually only happens for some games. Yesterday I wanted to play my VPSilmeria and the stupid game keep hanging every 5-10secs. Sometimes can hang very long somemore. Sibei irritating. This morning I dismantle the ps2 and clean the lens but it still gif me the same problem. Anyway the person just call and tell me to change the lens S$140. Actually the thing is I dun really trust this kind of shops and duno whether can trust them. My ps2 not totally spoilt the lens still working they say spoil liao -.-, But I mean I tried cleaning it and it dun work so maybe its spoilt... actually I duno sia but last time i almost got cheated when some shop say my ps1 lens spoil change need 100 over then I went elsewhere they charge me 40 + oni not lens spoil prob nia... so
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